do i need a chart to tell me about my life?

the hell with it...

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.8
Mind:	4.2
Body:	6.1
Spirit:	4.5
Friends/Family:	2.9
Love:	0
Finance:	7.4
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is on the low end. Making key changes to different aspects of your life will bring you greater fulfillment. Do not be discouraged. Seek help outside yourself if need be. There is always time to change, and change will bring many rewards.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is rather low, which means that your mental state is not in tune. Learn to filter out the noise of everyday life. Unplug, relax, read a good book. Take up a new area of study. Simplify and focus your mental energy and your mind function will improve.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. Your body score is fairly average, which means there is room for improvement. Keep a focus on your physical health. Protect your body as it is your most valuable physical asset. Nutrition, stress reduction, and exercise are key.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. You seem to be lacking in spirit. Improve your score by refining your beliefs and searching for answers to philosophical questions. Consider new belief systems if your current beliefs are not rewarding you.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. You scored at the very low end for friends and family. This means that your social network is weak and not functioning. Consider re-establishing old bonds as you work on forging new ones. You will be greatly rewarded in return.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did.

mr.bean

重温mr.bean，忽然发现与其说他是一位喜剧大师，不如说他是一位孤独大师：他自己逛街，自己上教堂，自己去海边或者游乐场，自己在公园的长板凳上吃金枪鱼三明治，自己过节，自己去豪华饭店吃生日宴，而且很擅长自己给自己写贺卡，最后总在闯完祸后独自溜走。于是，当他驾驶着他的那辆英国式小车，只浮出一个空洞脑袋在方向盘上时，我没法再体会到多年前看一部纯喜剧时的开怀了。

人是从心开始老的。

豆豆的生日

明天是豆豆一周岁生日，是个大日子。豆豆是谁呢？豆豆是老金和金嫂的大千斤（希望还有金二豆，金三豆啊）。金嫂是谁呢？金嫂是老金上得厅堂，下得厨房的发妻。老金呢？是千万个留美中国学生中的一名，很普通的一名，也很生动。他的故事，留给一本书吧，今天还是先说说豆豆。

豆豆不哭也不闹，会盯着你看，会恭喜你，会跟你byebye，会告诉你谁是豆豆。

豆豆还不太会说话走路，但已经很会看脸色（是谁给小小的豆豆脸色看？）。爸爸妈妈一天一班地轮流看护豆豆。妈妈在家时，豆豆敢多撒撒娇；可如果是爸爸，“乌鸡崽”（爸爸对豆豆的称呼）便只能安安静静地待在自己的摇篮床中。一岁的小娃娃便有这样的悟性，懂事得让人心疼。其实女孩子娇横一些更容易幸福，所以希望豆豆多一些娇横，便多一点幸福。

给豆豆买礼物的晚上是这些日子以来最愉快的时间。正如李宗盛在写给女儿的歌中所说，孩子就是希望，看见他们真的是可以忘却烦恼，感受天堂的。豆豆是她身边每一个人的天堂，就为这一点，我们衷心感谢豆豆及老金夫妇。

苏童+贾樟柯+周杰伦

=刺青时代
this is killing me! hope this one will work out. then 2006 is worthwhile.

jimmy crack corn

caught this saying on last night's seinfeld. learned that it's from a subversive civil war song, blue-tailer fly, in which a slave sings about how his master got drunk, fell, hit his head, and died. like many old stories/expressions, there are different versions to follow. but we now use it for a common purpose, as sung by the slave, "and i don't care".

folksongs are always interesting to discover, like "cats in the cradle", very southern and slightly sad.

honeymoon ended

这个空白的thanksgiving正式宣告，与atlanta的蜜月期结束了。it's frightening now; it's speechlessly frightening.

back to the gym

thanks to a sweating experience at my friend's gym of his university, i decided to join my own gym. so here comes the lame and unavoidable la fitness. tonight i'm back to yoga and swimming.

one of the reasons that i'm not a fan of working out is that it's just too repeatative. yoga is a good example. i am always high on it when i start off, with new teachers and new sets of poses. then the challenge and freshness are gone, and when i need to repeat the poses, i'm off. following the same logic, i can never be on a running machine or whatever; it's repeating itself from the very beginning.

this time, i dun know how long i will keep up. it's just one of the things i cannot control in my life; so let it be what it's got to be.

"goodby, lenin!"

一个说给母亲的谎言，一个说给一代人的谎言。超越所有社会变革动荡的，是平常人的爱心。

google's digitization

Some examples of google's digitization program's efforts:
http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2005/11/preserving-public-domain-books.html.

i'm leaving all the disputes to business men, scholars, legislators, and politicians. just one comment: they do need some good reading tool. the interface is a disgrace to big names like google.

moved to atlanta

十月初完成了从hammond, la到atlanta, ga的搬家，another markable change吧。

是在一片hurricane带来的混乱中离开louisiana的，没有时间好好和hammond告别，没有时间游览一下还留在我new orleans to do list上的地点，就很狼狈地逃了出来。人在其中时，觉得自己的生活很sad，现在跳出来了，才发现，那一片土地原来更悲伤。与我而言，那不过是人生一段不长的经历，可是那就是louisiana的全部了。

一直觉得自己和atlanta有一中特别的缘分，对她有一中特别的眷顾。现在终于来还这份缘了吧。要做一个insider了，不免会从另一个更为critical的view来重新measure这个城市，于是还会有这样那样的不满。不知到哪里才能停下来。最近挑剔的cousin到了melbourne，被迷住了，满意得不得了，good for her。我也会有自己的melbourne的。

也许atlanta来得有点晚了吧，有些东西已经不太能让我兴奋了，比如ikea，比如bebe,guess,express这些和王楠一起兴奋过的店，都已不太愿意涉足，真让自己失望。

搬家的另一个特征是，你会和久别的朋友们重新联系上，互相亲热一番，真诚的寒喧，很好。

好吧，从现在起，我能坐在border's看车来车往，上whole foods的大食堂，周末和朋友一起看电视，发呆，也good for me了。

tin tin & Herge

据Herge说，中国宋代的山水画中，人物的位置给了他很大的启发，因为你需要去寻找藏才茫茫画面中的人物，这一点与直线条的西方绘画有很大的不同。Herge对不同绘画技巧的学习和运用使得他的很多作品在将近一个世纪后仍然成为热销吧。

moving

right now in the process of moving to atlanta. was thrilled at the beginning, but not now. when the sense of home is deprived, the feeling of drifting rules.

a lowercase life, which was under my account with southeastern is going to be down for the coming month. i may use dreamhost as its new home, but haven't decided on the host name for the new site yet. will deal with it later.

live'n learn; live'n learn.

just like that...

a friend of mine went to harvard from uno because of katrina.

so here is the plan: have a natural disaster destroy everything
you've ever owned.....Go to Harvard (period).

katrina

i am in katrina...

bye 娘

娘's flight was boarding the moment i wrote down these words. have a safe trip, 娘。

两个月的时间足够形成一些习惯，比如喝牛奶时喊一声就行，比如不用记着倒垃圾，比如中午总按时回家美美吃一顿。而现在要和这种生活方式break up，是很痛苦的。

无论如何，希望娘在大洋那头好好过，尽情享受我miss掉的一切，比如盐水鸭，比如流行的颜色，比如亲友团聚。我呢，也要好好过，要积极，要勇敢，要健康，也要想家。

august brief

今天在mitbbs上做了两个无聊的小测试，结果什么的都不记得了，只知道这两个测试很久以前都在这里做过，结论就是，i'm too old啦。

上周和娘去florida的seagrove beachside度了几天假，总算让她这趟没有太白跑。这周末她就要回去了，我又要没饭吃了。

昨天去参加了bonnie的葬礼。虽然与她接触不多，心里还是很为她惋惜难过的。不过我们向死而生吧。

八月底了，lovebugs开始活动了。

涨麻木了

油价涨麻木了。今天在hammond, la的shell加了2.57的油，还排队，真是out of control。遥想2001年时，还在athens, ga边上一个不知名的小路边加了85c的油，看到90几cent就恨得牙痒痒，觉得真是tmd大江东去呀。

5年后，当我们在加6块钱的油时，肯定会眼巴巴地想起今天的油价，再感捶胸之恨的。嗯，人还是往前看的好。

五年

明天，是五年的一个纪念，说出来把自己吓一跳。日子总是越过越快，快得自己追不上。

2005年8月7号的一个特别之处，就是妈能在我身边。心里总觉抱歉，这一次没能好好陪她，只是一味无可自拔地沉浸在这样那样的痛苦中，连话也说不出。妈不在身边时，总希望着，如果有家人在身边，至少可以诉说。可也许什么都太久了，什么都透彻了，也就什么都不说了。其实连做都没有用，说能怎么样呢？

in case 明天家里的网络有出问题，今日有网今日上了。

七月底了

看看我这个月的schedule,一点也没闲着，所以也就justified没来这里放噘词了。

值得一提的是，这个月，老杜拿了博士，郭8过了第一个qualify。有朋友的朋友找到工作，朋友们也都还在找。

娘在的缘故，让我和家里也近了一层，心里自然多了一些惦记，比如两个表妹的终生大事正把家里弄得鸡犬不宁。可是这种烦恼其实是一种人间的幸福呀，让我仿佛看见温暖的人间烟火。不知到自己这些年独自在外，错过了多少这样的幸福，更不知道还将错过多少。

the 4th of july weekend

:: made a trip to syracuse, ny, and kept my promise to an old friend.
:: disgusted by jersy city.
:: questioned my passion to nyc.